Can't Hide Myself Anymore...

Seriously...
I don't feel the same anymore.
Today I found out that someone very close to me backslided.
Its so sudden.

Then about my ex cell group. I just can't let go.
It's like its very simple for other Christians to say to me, "believe in God" or "I'll pray with u/for u" but if you experience what I experienced... Haiz...

Then SJAB.
I can't take it le.
Just wanna commit suicide.
I have enough of Ms Ross and Ms Yip giving me stress everyday.
I have enough of being their "dog", running up and down.
I have enough of letting people vent their anger on me, be it NCOs or officers.
I have enough of officers insulting me.
I have enough!

I AM NOT COMING FOR TOMORROW'S TRAINING.
ITS FINAL.
YOU ALL CAN STRESS ME ALL U WANT
I DUN CARE... THE MOST I COMMIT SUICIDE IN FRONT OF YOU ALL U ALL WAN?